Tuesday, March 24, 2015

What To Do When Bored

Make weird gestures with your hands.
This is surprisingly satisfying – almost as satisfying as taking the actual key part of a car key out of the techy car key device.  If you know what I am talking about, that will make perfect sense.     

Write.
Get a pencil and paper, or some keys attached to a writing device, and let it go.

Draw.
Doodling is the best.

Look out the window.
Or look at the actual window itself.  Either way, boredom and pain will dissipate as you peer through the pane. 

Create a written language.
1325 141135 919 101315.  Write the translation in the comments.

Walk around naked.
Admit it, you do this even when you’re not bored, so why not do it while you are bored?

Meditate.
You don’t have to be a trained yogi to mediate.  Just sit comfortably and properly [so you don’t fall asleep] and be. 

Sing.
Why not?

Dance.
Do it.

Look at yourself in the mirror.
When you feel bored, or even a tad bit lousy, look at yourself in the mirror.  Concentrate.  Refuse to focus.  Be wild.  Be still.  Sometimes I do this and transform myself into a statue.  At times, I can feel as though I myself can move and my reflection will retain my previous shape. 

Sit in the dark.
Just chill there.  Let the lack of light comfort you.

Turn off the lights in a room [do this only if the room has yellow tinted lights] and turn on your computer or phone so that that device lights up the room.
The room you have known, walked in, and utilized will now have a completely different atmosphere.  Soak in the unnaturalness and ponder.  This works amazingly in a bathroom.

Wander.
Walk.  Run.  Skip.  Jump.  Climb.  Crawl.  Hover.  Fly.  Simply change your location for no apparent reason or motivation.  Be free.


       - J. A. Kind 

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Art Exhibition: 10 - Untitled

Through this piece,
I wanted to 
craft a colorized caricature
of my pinterest board:


Hide and seek dominated the recreational realm of the childhood her body once experienced.  Darkness and claustrophobia strangled the trachea – she appreciated the tormented grip.  As a celibate, the younger skin of her own craved a fall.  The game, ready or not.  The plummet of the lungs and stomach at the sound of “come” shook her to the core.  Comical, is it not, that the reverberation of the collection of waves resembling the same word caught as a child, excite her to this day?  “Run,” the voices would yelp.  “Ascend one knee after another, as sweat condenses on the forehead, and vestal lips sputter in the wind.”  Let the acrylic splatter the board as the pureblooded amalgamation of live atoms hid in the game – limbs, without fail, crave the demand of application.  Appendages, games – thirst.

           - J. A. Kind

Friday, March 13, 2015

Art Exhibition: 9 - Isabel

A throwback for @isbableel.


- J. A. Kind



14 Spot-On Quotes For Introverts

My second Thought Catalog article.  Link to site is here.


1.

Telling an introvert to go to a party is like telling a saint to go to Hell.

2.

There’s a difference between preferring books to parties and preferring sixteen cats to seeing the light of day.

3.

Introverts treasure the close relationships they have stretched so much to make.

4.

When introverts are in conflict with each other…it may require a map in order to follow all the silences, nonverbal cues and passive-aggressive behaviors!

5.

The only problem with seeing people you know is that they know you.

 6.

Inside was where she lived, physically and mentally. She resided in the horn of plenty of her own prodigious mind, fertilized by inexhaustible curiosity.

7.

Quiet people have the loudest minds.
- Steven Hawking

8.

I’ve been accused my whole life of being “too sensitive”. This actually kind of pisses me off, but maybe that’s just because I’m too sensitive.

9.

I was born as a forest, but I feel overwhelmed by all these trees.

10.

I don’t want to be alone, I want to be left alone.
- Audrey Hepburn

11.

Raise your words, not your voice. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder.
- Rumi

12.

I think a lot, but I don’t say much.
- Anne Frank

13.

And I like large parties. They’re so intimate. At small parties there isn’t any privacy.
- F. S. Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

 14.

Quiet is might. Solitude is strength. Introversion is power.
– Laurie Helgoe

           - J. A. Kind

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

27 Thoughts We All Have While Walking Up Steps

11. Are these steps or stairs?
22. What even is the difference?
33. Am I done yet?
44. I am going to have an asthma attack.
55. Where the hell is that second landing?
66. I need a break.
77. This is the hardest task I have yet had to accomplish.
88. How long have I been ascending?
99. I have got to be like 30 feet up.
110. I am losing oxygen.
111. My lungs are collapsing.
112. I can feel lung tissue in my stomach.
113. I’m going to fall.
114. I’m literally going to fall from stepping up things.
115. I’m going to trip.
116. Is anyone watching me?
117. Shit, people are watching.
118. Dammit, I always trip in front of people.
119. Hopefully it’s not (insert crush name).
220. Oh lord, my troubles.
221. Jesus, step!
222. Is it bad that I am more worried about falling up the steps than down them?
223. Falling up steps – I’m a gravity rebelling ascending youth.
224. A G.R.A.Y!
225. Talking about gray, I am addicted to the 50SOG “Crazy in Love.”
226. “Got me looking so-“

227. Dammit I fell up.

     - J. A. Kind

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Bye Bye Birdie

           In the final chapter of The Bluest Eye, by Toni Morrison, Morrison described Pecola as “ beating the air, a winged but grounded bird, intent on the blue void it could not reach-could not even see-but which filled the valleys of her mind” (204).  The substance of this sentence symbolizes that as a human, Pecola was given all the personal tools necessary for her to reach the daily blue coating of the stars.  She had intellect, emotions, and the physical components of the average human; nevertheless, she could not grasp her goal and obtain the “blue void” (204) that would assuage her pains.  For Pecola Breedlove was inhibited of success by all the components that formed the collection of actions and concepts around her – every aspect of Pecola’s life restricted her ability to obtain success.  It formed a life-consuming inability, a simplistic restriction that presented itself as groundedness.  In The Bluest Eye, Morrison explained “how,” not “why,” (2) this restriction was solidly composed.  Consequently, once this restriction had been buried “too deeply” (206), Morrison delved into the repercussions of the restriction on the pathetic child.  Pecola existed as a bird, and through her feathered meat cawing behind the meaning of this deformed symbolism, Toni Morrison plucked Pecola raw, therefore showing the bare life of a black girl in the 1940s. 
            In the continued symbolism of the final chapter, Pecola had wings.  However, she and “her ugliness” (205) were unable to use her bodily tools to achieve flight.  Pecola, “winged but grounded,” never became one with the “blue void” that stalked her mind like the prey she herself was (204).  Morrison purposely shrouded the cause of Pecola’s inability in ambiguity to underlying peck at the vast possibilities of reasons for Pecola’s suffering.  Pecola’s wings could have cracked and crumbled, loosely remaining hinged to her core, when “Cholly loved her,” when he “loved her enough to touch her, envelop her, give something of himself to her” (206).  Pecola’s wings could have broken and bent as her father’s stiff member penetrated her and gave her life.  Perversion could have bred the inability to preform.  However, the cause of the effect that reflected itself in the inability could have additionally been due to the actual ground where Pecola’s talons scraped for “the thing [that society] assassinated” (206).  The earth itself could have deprived Pecola of flight.
            The year the “black dirt” (1) failed to produce the life once granted by its own perversion, the earth and its own soil, aborted their mission to “nurture certain fruit,” to germinate “certain seeds,” and to blossom “certain kinds of flowers” (206).  The world where Pecola remained grounded, refused to provide the certain necessities of further development and success from its very ground.  The earth disliked the ugly girl and the sooner it could rid its surface of the bulging imperfection, the better.  For with the eradication of the blemish, the natural world order would return – the comparisons to her “ugliness,” “inarticulateness,” “poverty,” and “frailty” (205) would fade into “the blue void” (204) and “the fantasy of [their] strength” (205) would remain just that, a fantasy.  Morrison created a physical world of hatred for Pecola.  This world deprecated development by honoring imagination, by ironically granting bird form to a flightless girl, and by cruelly creating blue eyes for an ignored individual.  The bird Pecola’s mind inhabited, was inhibited from flight, yet similarly repressed from pecking the ground for certain types of fruits, seeds, and flowers because those cultivated appendages of the earth never reached out from “among the garbage and the sunflowers” (206) to be able to be grabbed. 
            Only garbage and sunflowers discharged from the “edge of [the] town” (206).  However even if the fruits, seeds, and flowers of earth’s womb did survive following fertilization, Pecola would still be unable to clutch them.  Pecola no longer carried the trait, the ability, to seize; she was physically limp and mentally numb.  The physical components that once failed to distinguish Pecola from the society around her ironically vanished into the “blue void” (204) Pecola could not physically or mentally conceive.  For Pecola might have had wings and blue eyes but she was nonetheless categorized as the victim [who] had no right to live” (206).  Pecola socially died; she solely coalesced her buried feathers while “her head [jerked] to the beat of a drummer so distant only she could hear.”  She unknowingly deafened herself, and in so, retracted her position as a pureblooded amalgamation of live atoms, one that could resist the urge to grab the gifts of the earth.  However Pecola was no longer pureblooded.  She was a collection of hows and other perverse qualities – a canvas of splattered blood and love from the “wicked,” the “violent,” the “weak,” “the stupid,” and the “free” (206). 

            Pecola carried the eyes of a stranger, the physique of a bird, and the incestuous blood formed from the deposit of her father.  Pecola was a rag doll – unlike that of Shirley Temple, for Pecola was played with.  She was played with in the dirt and she was played with on the sofa.  She was played with in the kitchen and she was played with in the mirror.  She was manipulated, seen, yet habitually unheard.  She was known – known until her very substance metamorphosed into a bird of no melody; and in that instant, Morrison climactically reconstructed Pecola’s story into an allegory for many – Morrison manifested the silently chirped song of the black girl. 

      - J. A. Kind